Monday, August 13, 2007
i am sick and tired of everything. nobody knows what i want, not even myself. i'm not being emo. i'm not complaining or being whiny.
im only freaking sixteen going on seventeen, why the hell do i have to deal with all these. fuck i dont usually swear but i really cant take it.
im just not brave enough to do anything. to face it or to end it.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 3:21 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
sadness is as feelings are, nothing but this strange entanglement of your soul to the devil. reminders of the obscure moments you find yourself insignificant. and yes, you are insignificant. its the embodiment of having everything yet nothing at all. capturing something only to have it slipping through your fingers again. your soul slowly escaping from your body, looking at yourself and shaking its head in disagreement. you tried, the weakness nothing but holding you back into the shadows of your pain. it is the weakness that you wish to obliterate, yet it is the same weakness that pulls you back into the gaping hole. and you realize you can never do anything much, never amount to something. the weakness eats into you. leaves you nothing more than an empty body, going through life with no motivation or hopes. and hopes, you realize is nothing more than a stranger who has turned its back on you, walking further away by the minute. yes, sadness is as feelings are. may you fight the devil with will and heart.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 8:31 PM
Friday, June 08, 2007
hey all,
just got back from soccer camp.
its so super duper and the company was so good!
OMG.
if it wasnt for the bad showers and bad sleeps, i might have cried if it ended.
i was so yearning for my home bed. HAHAH.
the soccer, running, cards, movies, meals and everything was just so memorable.
ah well, it was really fun tho sometimes i kinda zoned off and stuff
but really, the company was darn good!
haha now its time to recuperate from all my aches.
anyhoo, miss all you old friends, meet up soon k oldies!
i love you all! life's good but my bed is better.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 2:42 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
SA SOCCER GIRLS ARE CHAMPSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
today is happy day.
first sa soccer girls triumphed.
then,
i went out for dinner wit old buds.
ball, aisyah, jean, sam, melissa!!
newton is seriously losing standard.
TSKKKK.
okay, i miss all my old friends.
HOLSSSSSSSSSssssssssssss.
time to play more soccer,
train more!
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 11:06 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
i dont like sore throats.
it means looking at all those yummy yummy love-in-tummy good food,
and not being able to eat it at all.
anyhow,
tv makes me sad these days.
im missing too much of it!
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 10:59 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
i feel so small in this huge world.
i have no idea if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
i feel like fucking swearing out loud.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 2:58 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
haha. i think life's alright for me now.
too much to describe in detail.
so i shant describe anything!
i just wanna sit at home and watch tv all day,
watch tv all dayyyyyyyyyyy.
HAHAH but i'll miss my friends,
but i don't care,
i'll just invite em overrr to my hse or something.
i don't like studying.
i don't like whining either but i can't help it.
i wish i was like cyclops in x-men and i'll blast my homework away with my uber cool goggles.
ok whatever.
anyhow,
MANU WON THE PREMIERSHIP TITLE! 2006-2007!! anyone who sees me on MSN would know how happy i am (thanks debbie and whoever made that icon)!!
HAHAHAH.
i'm so lookin forward to my dragonforce concert
BUT,
i've never really gone anywhere alone, like something big alone beforeeeeeee.
of course my bro's gonna be around BUTTT. gahhhhhh.
anyone who seems nice going for the concert?
anyone who has good taste in music?
LOL. okay i know, fifty seven bucks.
GRRRR.
Thy sang her last verse at coffin 8:35 PM